Archive | October, 2011

How I Moved From Maintaining to Losing Weight!

10 Oct

I have been on the same kilo now for over a month!!! Frustrated? Not quite, because to be truthful, I haven’t really kept my end of the bargain! In the last month I stopped tracking my food and calories, stopped working out, brought heavenly havarti cheese, magnificent M&Ms and fabulous fried chicken as well as palate-pleasing pizza into my house. WAY OFF TRACK!  The good thing is that I did, infact, maintain. Normally this would have put on a good kilo or more. I have managed to keep the calories at a reasonable range when eating all this junk!  That is a plus.

I figure my downfall is that the season is fall…no pun intended! This is the time of year when my Canadian animal instinct takes over and I overeat as if I might hibernate for winter. Any weight that I would normally lose in the spring comes back in fall when I can cover myself in layers of clothing and have mad cravings for comfort food.

Not this time! I am nipping it in the bud. Splurged on carrot cake, apricot tart, cheese and pizza as well as pasta, and that was just since Friday!  It’s been delicious and fun but I have had enough and am looking forward to kicking off the weight with some long walks in this fine weather as well as getting back to my fun dance aerobics. I will go back to eating oatmeal and yummy salads, and no more junk will enter this house. Did I mention the baked goods?? Yeah, there were lots of them too. Miracle for maintaining my weight to be honest!

How else will I move from maintaining to losing? I will practice mindful eating, which works for all the 5 times I did it! I will track the food I eat and go back to 1600 kcals a day. I will exercise at least 4 hours a week, I will still eat yummy food but in moderation. I will not bring the goodies home because if it is there, I will eat it…all…in a matter of hours. I also am doing a fellow life coach a favor and being her client for six sessions for her grad requirements and I will get some more motivation and support from that!.  Feeling very stoked and excited!

Here is some great news! I have had to shop at “The Big and Tall” store  here in Seoul because finding clothes is tricky if you are over a size 10. Well I went there two weekends ago and I am too small for their sizes!! At first, I panicked because I have next to no clothes that fit, as I have grown out mine and threw many away thinking I would be in Canada by now. Then I realized that this is a good thing!  I still have a way to go but  finding clothes to fit me will be my newest mission…and not having to shop at only the ‘big’ store is rewarding!  It has me motivated to lose more and get myself into sizes that are easier to find.

Wish me luck! I’ll keep you posted!

Letting go of the outcome

7 Oct

As you all know, Daniel and I have been waiting over a year for the visa to go to Canada. We were expecting it six months ago, the shortest processing time possible. We are optimists and our expectations reflected that.  Thirteen months later, you can imagine that our happy-happy-joy-joy feelings have diminished to ones of frustration.  We have written inquiries, gone in-person many times to the embassy inquiring about our status.  We just keep getting the same answer; no answer. We are told that they are backed up with so many applications. We have been told that there is no problem with the application and to just wait.  We finally got an email back from them for the first time stating, “Your case is still under processing. We are not sure when would be the final processing date. Please wait until we contact you.” Well that is news to us! Geez no kidding!  So we wait indefinitely and now need to get our feelings to be at peace with waiting.

The other night we were venting our frustrations and as we were, I realized that we are missing the moment. In all of our time hoping to go to Canada,  hoping to leave Korea and hoping for our new chapter to start, we have stopped living meaningfully.  Being so focused on leaving, and not being able to, I have found myself in the biggest rut. I haven’t worked on my coaching business and I have so much to do for it. I can put up a website, research how to start a business and read all the business newsletters that have come to my inbox and filed away in a folder unread.  I had also stopped working out, not sure why but I am guessing with my bitter mood that I was feeling unmotivated.

Last Sunday Daniel and I went for a long walk and thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. We were in the moment basking in the sunshine, getting exercise and having some time together without venting bitterness.  I went out again yesterday with Minu, my dog and once again enjoyed the weather and feeling active. I have to say, being in nature always lifts my mood.

In focusing only on our future and what we were lacking living  presently, we missed enjoying the moment.  I’ve made a promise to myself to no longer do that. Daniel and I were just talking last night and it came to us how far we’ve come and how fortunate we are. We are not suffering, we have our health, our families’ love, each other, and a wonderful future to look forward to. We are just fine and we are missing it by focusing forward too much.

So here’s to living in the moment and enjoying each day. Here’s to letting go of expectations and outcomes and instead living presently and joyfully with the focus of gratitude for each day we have. No more wishing away our days here in Korea. We are so lucky to have them. And soon, when immigration decides, we will be in Canada , living each moment and with fond memories of our time in Korea.